I am a person with a PTSD/complex truama diagnosis. I have experiences the grooming of an uncle who I adored to accept molestation. After this, one night after a drinking heavily he violated me and threatened me that if I told anything to anybody he would kill me. Tomplex trauma I suffered was constant arguing in the home. Poly agal theorry has given me an understanding, that I never had before even though I have Masters courses in counseling and Psychotherapy, to why I have behaved the way I did that was not helpful, and how to get my way back two peace in my relationship with others and my beloved Triune God of Christianity.